Life. Is. Crazy.

Let's just say sometimes life is crazy. And right now, my life is crazy. It's a new semester, which includes new classes, a new schedule, and new people. Now you will come to find out I am not good with change and many times get very stressed. The first few days of classes where we go over what will be covered and what will be expected, those are nothing, but after that the real class starts.
I was super excited about my new classes this semester. There were more that had to do with my major, elementary education, which would maybe add some fun to my schedule. But then I also had a science class and me and science, well we just don't mix. Luckily, though my roommate was in that class, so we could suffer through it together. I was ready. I was thinking, "Bring it on".
Now here is where life gets crazy.
Over break my roommate had informed me that she wasn't going to be in one of my classes this semester (not the science one) that we were suppose to be in. She told me she would explain why after break. Well the end of break came and we had just completed our first class, and finally had a chance to sit down and talk. She then started to explain why she would not be in my class anymore.
Many of you may or may not have heard of the high schooler who while after shooting the game winning shot, instantly died. The cause of death was some kind of heart disease, where no physical activity can take place; it's very dangerous. Well come to find out my roommate's dad has this disease, and being that it is hereditary, means that there is a 50/50 chance my roommate has it. With this being the case, if she did have it she would not be able to play softball and would probably not be able to attend Bethel any more. Her life would totally change if she has this condition. Being the happy go lucky person she is, she had a back up plan in motion. If she left Bethel she would go to a school many of her friends from high school attend and look into becoming a massage therapist. She has this deep down feeling that she does have this condition and in just a few short months will be heading down the new path God has sent into motion for her.  I am excited for her because I know she wants to do what God wants her to do and follow Him with all her heart.
You are probably wondering how this applies to my own life. In my personal beliefs, I think God uses people in our life to teach us things about His greatness and His love. My roommate has become one of my closest friends here at Bethel and I tell her everything from things about the cutest boy on campus to the most embarrassing thing that happened to me that day. I can share my heart with her and trust her in every situation. I got one good random roommate, lets just put it that way.
Lately I have been learning to pray more and more for the people around me rather than just for myself. I think I have prayed more for her the past week than for anyone else I come in contact with. Today more crazy things happened in her life that she opened to share with me where I could tell she was very stressed and didn't know what to do. Of course I prayed and then after she left the room for a little bit I decided to right her a note. I searched my Bible for a verse that applied best to her situation. The verse I cam upon was Romans 5:3-5, which reads, "More than that we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that  suffering produces endurance, endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us." As much as we want to say "Why God?", we can not because we would then be taking our trust out of our Savior. We have to rejoice and know that we are only suffering and wondering because He has something bigger and much better ahead for us. Something that may take time to discover. I told her in the note I wrote that God has something better for her besides Bethel and softball, this is just one of the stepping stones in His path for her. I will continue to pray for her in the coming days and weeks as she discovers new things.
As for this in my life, its hard for me to cope with her probably not being at Bethel next year. I wanted to room with her and other friends next year just because I know we would have a blast. But what I want to happen is never guaranteed. The plans God has for me are though. That is all I can rely on; His plans for me. I know its already set in stone and I must put every single ounce of my hope in Him and His plans and be willing to do whatever He asks me to do, whether I want to or  not. One day I will look back on this and say thank you because it is making me stronger and bringing me closer to Him. God's will for me is to follow Him and be His disciple. While it may be hard, in the end it will be worth it.
God has a plan for both me and my roommate, even if they are separate from each other. In the coming years, I have this feeling we will stay close friends even if we aren't at the same school. But if that is God's will, then let it be. As for me I want to follow Him and do His will over mine every moment of my life.
:)